i think these wings are helping me to do work. should have known earlier. all these supernatural powers for $12 at party city. it's almost a steal.

i love being frugal ;)

so upset was i that i decided to morph into something other than what i used to be. thus, i now have two jumbo wings on my back that has glitters on it. perhaps i'll pay a visit to officer j's house. (with my newly identity comes not only the ability to fly but also the psychic power to where people live.) perhaps i'll haunt you in your dreams too. so beware.

when i'm upset, i don't binge on fatty food like ice cream or chocolate or pizza. i eat celery sticks with blue cheese. i think it has to do with the freshness and crispness of celery that change my temporarily glim outlook on things and keeps me cool and collected.

well, i need to go because i just ran out of blue cheese, but i would like to note that:
a. laws aren't to be broken. i will never master the art of arguing my way out of trouble. nor do i want to. poor me.
b. i'll always recognize those who traumatized me in the past. like officer johnson who gave me my first speeding ticket. (but i really think he's a good guy. man... i hate being torn about people.)
c. i live 2 miles away from a courthouse. who knew.

*sigh*

I don't believe in flu shots. My medical history has no record of influenza, except for this one year when i actually got a flu shot. And a year later, everyone in my family got flu shots except me. That year, everyone in my family got sick for a week, except for me. I have a pretty good reason not to get a flu shot this year.

So why I do moan about the soreness in my arm and have a bandaid stuck on my shoulder? Because a box of Tootsie-Roll Pops caught my attention as I was passing by the flu shot stand this morning. let me repeat, I was passing by the place where nurses were poking needles at people. I never intended on getting poked myself. but what can i say? I really wanted a tootsie pop. the insane me inside said, what's a shot and a few minutes of pain in exchange for longer lasting enjoyment of cherry-flavored lollie-pop in my mouth? foolish me.

When i was young, mom used to tell me to walk away if any stranger offers me candy. She said they either want to kidnap me or hurt me. oh boy, was she so right.

i feel kinda sick too.

this can't be true! my work email that i usually check with fear and trembling on monday mornings had no new messages!! :D

happy monday!

an excerpt from a chit-chat with a girl (i can't remember her name:T) in our children's ministry. we'll call her "girl" ":

girl: i watched Monsters Inc. with my brother yesterday.
me: oh really? (trying to sound nice so i can be her friend)
girl: yeah. *pause* do you know what Monsters Inc. is?
me: of course! (somewhat puzzled why she was doubtful.)
girl: are you young enough to watch it?
me: *brief silence as i tried to find my composure* yum. yes.
girl: oh yeah, i forgot. i watched it with my parents last time, so i guess you can see it too.
me: [in my head] okay, girl, i'm not going to be your friend.

so thankful that i don't work for the children's ministry ;)
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physically exhausted i am.

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l, hope you had a good flight home! so glad to hear that you're an east-coaster at heart! but we'll keep it d/l while you're over there;) miss you lots.
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b, i miss you too. so don't be jealous;) wanna go to john mayer concert with me when you're here?
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might as well just go down the alphabet and have random people figure out who's who :P

oh, p, perhaps this will be an opportunity to write a short film? (your entry was very encouraging.)

g'night, kiddos. this lady is off to sleep.

any john mayer fans out there? please let me know!

definitely not a productive day:P

i'm still in my robe, my hair dripping wet. it's almost 9am and i can't seem to get out of this chair!
dilema of the morning: should i call in sick? i do feel some discomfort in my throat. hm... i don't think it's an option though. (or is it? where's my planner?..) okay, i'm hungry. i'll think about this as i munch on some cereal. yup, i'm already late for work.

You're not strong enough to fall away as long as God has resolved to hold you. -Packer

i don't know. it just doesn't sound right. SPAM oven-roasted turkey? it's like peanut butter that's made of margarine. it's like me playing basketball with a "game-face" as someone calls it. okay, perhaps not that drastic. anyways, i will give it a try sometime this week. SPAM, i mean. not basketball.

i only used 309 daytime minutes on my cell last month. this skeptic couldn't believe the billing statement and had to call the customer service and wait 10 minutes listening to Pachelbel's Canon in order to confirm this fact. kudos to me! ;) (and guess what my ringer tone is ... pachelbel's canon. heh.)

finally saw "The Way We Were." this is the movie where that popular song came from. love the last few lines.

(A.Bergman, M.Bergman & M.Hamlisch)
Memories,
Light the corners of my mind
Misty water-colored memories
Of the way we were
Scattered pictures,
Of the smiles we left behind
Smiles we gave to one another
For the way we were
Can it be that it was all so simple then?
Or has time re-written every line?
If we had the chance to do it all again
Tell me, would we? Could we?
Mem’ries, may be beautiful and yet
What’s too painful to remember
We simply choose to forget
So it's the laughter
We will remember
Whenever we remember...
The way we were...
The way we were...

do you think we choose to forget the pains? personally that's how my memory works after a year or so. it's usually beyond my control.

now if i were Babs (haha :P) i would have done things differently to work out the relationship with Robert Redford, but that's just me. by the way mr.redford is drool-worthy in the movie.

haha, my mom called and left a vmsg asking what i ate for dinner. she knows me so well... :P

anyways, i'm finally home, in my pj's and a sweatshirt that's clearly too big. very much loving it. anyways, people, i remembered that i forgot the post the result of my little pilot experiment. so after that experimental coffee, half an hour later, my head cleared up and the throbbing headache disappeared. yup, i'm an addict. so... my next immediate thought was, does my insurance cover admissions to rehab centers? if so, i would like to sign up for a 5-day program somewhere in the desert out in the west. i hear colorado and nevada have nice places; perhaps i'll spot a celebrity or two :P i'm just rambling about nothing.

allow me to be vague for a minute. feeling a little scared about something. for possible rejections. possible struggles and humblings. no, i'm not talking about med schools. and no, it's not a boy problem. told'ya i was going to be vague ;) alright, must go. macaroni, tell mom that i had curry and rice at church for dinner. they feed me well. bye bye.

i've been having this pounding headache for the past two days. and i'm not a head-achey kinda girl. i never get headaches, unless i'm hanging out with the wrong crowd. (so if i ever said, man, i have a headache when i'm with you, you know what it means. now if i have a stomach ache that's another story. anyways...) when i shared my pain with a coworker, he suggested that i might be going through a caffeine-withdrawl. which might be a possibility because since wednesday, i haven't had any coffee (!). the thought of me having a caffeine-withdrawl is disturbing beyond words, i must say. because as much as i appear to drink coffee through out the day, i really don't. rarely do i finish a cup in one sitting. but i just like having it in my hand. it's a habit. *sigh*

so i'm going to do a controlled experiment on myself. i'm about to go out and get myself a nice brew of Mocha Java. i'll let you know the result after a few hours.

I must have looked very odd walking to work this morning with a glass of milk. (a clear plastic cup, to be exact, so there was no way of hiding.) but what was i suppose to do? leave the milk sit in my car all day? or have my wheat toast with jam and butter without milk? i didn't think so either.

but i do need to find a new breakfast menu. this full-blown breakfast ordeal in the car is causing too much stress. for one, i need to wipe off the jam from my stearing wheel when i head out later on. Kudos and nutri-grain bars worked really well for me, but that was before the real thing. it's like how dogs stop eating dog food after they taste the goodness of what we eat. they know what they've been missing out :)

while my parents take their weekend trip visiting the other daughter that they love, i'll be attending a work-related symposium. but what worries me more than the responsibility of introducing a speaker in front of an audience tomorrow is this impending question in my head: what am i going to eat? suggestions on easy recipes will be very much appreciated. any donation of food is more welcome.

there's definitely much more to talk about but i'm afraid this will have do to. happy friday!

from assumption to confirmation,
from nostaliga to reflection,
from riding to absorbing,
finally relishing the places, the moments
and even the imperfections of who we are.

that's what i've been doing lately.
i'm doing well.

my hero has become a bigger hero in the world :D

a few more random tidbits to sqeeze in before midnight:
i don't like to take medicine. it's not the bitter taste; it's that strange feeling i get a few minutes later. and the slowness of everything.. like, after i take a few painkillers, i start to wonder why 2 plus 2 equals 4. (or is medicine helping me to explore the untouched realms of nature? hm...) / why is it so hard for me to be completely broken? / "a few good men" is one of those movies i can watch over and over and over again. it's almost as good as "little mermaid" / tom cruise got old. another sad reality / one thing i got out of my java class was the use of double slashes like these //. i started to incorporate those in my lecture notes. they make my notes really neat :P / i need a new CD drive. / i'm sleeeeepy.... i just took a few more painkillers.

alright, i should stop before i scare y'all.. lucidity is key to a good blog. this isn't a good blog.

all i wanted to do was use my new printer to print the class roster...

but i forgot that i need to install the new software from a cd to take advantage of my purchase. and i remembered that my cd-rom drive has been malfunctioning oh for the past couple of months:T

so i decided to tear my computer apart for the first time. i sat on the carpet, disconnecting the cables, opening up the cover [you can hold your applause 'til the end. thank you.], unscrewing things, poking things, fiddling around with what looked like the cd driver cable, and holding it gently as i said my prayers, all the while reading Dell Reference and Troubleshooting Guide for some guidance as to what in the world i was doing. (this must be what surgeons feel during operations, without the reference guide of course.... just kidding;) back to my story. all my effort and dust-inhaling to no avail :(

after two hours of this chaos, however, the lightbulb starts to blink. can i possibly download the software from the company website??!? yup. everything i needed in a nifty 18MB zip file. :D [you can applaud now.] although i may have reached my limit of hardware exploration for the night, i definitely added quite a few new words to my vocab list. do you know what bezels are? i suggest you take your PC apart. (and all your mac users, you guys got it easy... wusses.. :P)

i'm never ready enough for mondays. can we postpone it for a little awhile? pretty puh-lease with m&m's on top? (i never liked cherries that much.) how about m&m' with peanuts??

*sigh*
it's not going to happen, is it?

another thing, who says i can't cook? (there's a big difference between don't cook and can't cook. :D) let it be known that i make the best tuna salad. and my mexican 6-layer dip was a hit at the last potluck this week. so, adding them on to the list of "dishes" that i can make, including russian tea cake and various other entrees that needs to be microwaved to perfection, hey, i can even get married and won't starve my family! of course, there'll always be Quaker's cream of wheat in case i'm not up for cooking. (it's got all the essential vitamins and minerals. i'm going to be a good mommy :)

happy friday! i love wearing jeans to work.

go see "sweet home alabama" for three reasons:
1. two extremely beautiful people as main characters with a very predictable ending but it's still a good movie.
2. cute, cozy, but not cheesy. (it's my favorite scene. aww...)
3. reese witherspoon, who's a trendy nyc designer who just made it big, drives a saab convertible. *ahem* do you know how many times i've been ridiculed and persecuted for liking that car!?! dude, who says i don't have style in cars! ;)

anyways, go see the movie. you'll like it.
and also, for the locals, there's a speed camera on Rt.100 right at the I95 exit sign. so do advise. yup, i keep my eyes wide open when i'm on rt100 now ;) g'night.

what we need to eradicate from the world to make it a better place:
1. red light cameras
2. potholes (let's start with baltimore please)
3. monday mornings
4. meetings that start before 9am.

who's with me on this?

since you tell me that you come here so often out of boredom...

Ten years ago, a few hundred miles north of here, this is what autumn looked like.

comment: don't ask what my sister is doing. she does weird stuff like that :P and yes, those are my glasses covering half of my face, and that is my permed hair that you see.

oh my, it's october!