flipping the page ...
on my way out, i saw a big bright star against the setting sun.
i sure hope it was a star 'cuz my wish is on it..
i'm greeting this new year with much ambivalence. for one, i'm far from ready to close this year and for another, i'm quite reluctant to face the new year, as one of the first things that await me in 2004 is... school and the (literally) 14-inch syllabus that still sits in the trunk of my car. i must have thrown it in while heavily medicated with theraflu before i left school.
for me, today started only a few hours ago with the book i fell asleep reading last night, and a bowl full of grapes and cheddar cheese. (after learning that 100% of asians become lactose-intolerant, my wish for next year is that it will not be the year i join the majority of the asian population. i'm too young for such misfortune.) i'm in the middle of reading the autobiography of katharine graham, the late publisher of the washington post, and i find it more engrossing than the other book i borrowed from the library here, the essentials of c.s. lewis, comprised of his fictions, nonfictions and a few letters and excerpts of his writing on philosophy and literature among others. no doubt he's a great writer and have much for me to learn. but his writing was too heavy for me to read more than three pages at a time, and mysteriously that heaviness tranfers to my eyelids sooner than i want. i know, i'm appalling some people by saying that i'm falling asleep on their hero. but... maybe i'll try The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe in his children's section. (any readers out there?)
so i shall start this day now.. must change out of this pj and the fleece robe that's been keeping me warm and lazy all morning. i plan on spending the last hours of this year by eating a hearty lunch soon, writing something reflective in my journal, (writing those holiday cards that await me with more patience than i ever had), and going out to dinner with close friends. i'll be back to join my family for the midnight service tonight. right now, i can't see another better way to greet the new year. especially when i'm not ready... i need that divine encouragement telling me 2004 will be alright however fearsome it looks. i'm sure there will be a time when i will or have to break this tradition of family and church service, but let me enjoy it in my own way until then. :D
happy new year everyone! ;)
greeting the new year in candle light