i think i have tmj from non-academic stress factors in my life right now. hm. need wisdom to handle this situation.

pics from today. (i should have brought my camera to dinner yesterday!)


with c. @ le madri

mmmmmmmm....

rocco's!

while walking to meet c, i saw a familiar awning at my side and it's rocco's! hence, i took a pic in memory of that one night when i saw the show "Restaurant" for five hours during its marathon on Bravo. i believe it was the night after a long long exam...

doesn't look as fancy as it showed on tv.

does anyone have TMJ here? mine's acting up again for some reason. i can't eat!!
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eversince i had a mtg with my boss and realized that she's quite satisfied with the work done so far, i've been slacking off and dozing off at work. seriously though, i've been suffering from post-lunch coma throughout this week that's been hard to overcome. when no one was around, i just put my head down and set my cellphone alarm for 5 minutes, with one ear set to detect any footsteps in the hallway. after a minute or two, i decided to forget the nap as it was found to be more stressful than fighting the coma.

took a break for coffee. a long break. on my way, i saw through a fence a bunch of little (adorable!) preschoolers running around in their school playground. man, such carefree little souls... with the pribilege of enjoying the beautiful weather today. if a genie asked me for my one wish at that moment, i would have asked to be 6 again. of course, i came back to my senses once one of the teachers kept looking at me funny and finally walked towards where i was. he must have thought i was either 1)a mom or an aunt of one of the asian boys there or 2) a very sick-minded person who works at the hospital.

good iced coffee. cute server at the coffee shop. okay, a few more hours to kill.

can't wait to see this girl tonight who's been MIA in her cubicle for the past month.

okay, so i take it back. not all med students are annoying and pompous. only those from ny schools :P just kidding!

had another one of those meetings with other fellows to learn about the history of this institute where i work. (fyi, i'm being "oriented" now rather than earlier because i started three weeks before others) and today, i actually sat with students from out of town. some from california, some from the north and none from the south.

it occured to be today that i manage to always say something that cracks a laugh when i'm introducing myself. it's really not intentional. but eight out of ten times, something i mention seems to be entertain the group that forms a circle. is it my name?

a jazz festival at central park on friday before my sister's arrival.


so i'm not into jazz, i learned this evening.

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i thought this was lenin. apparently it's shakespear. fine. whatever.

photo taken not by me.

dang it, i forgot to do laundry.

*hitting myself on the forehead*

oy..
so tired from this weekend. my sister came to visit and all i remember is just walking and walking and walking. and yesterday, i walked and walked again with sharon and jane. i think my feet need some pampering. feel so sorry for them.

my roommate moved in last night at 11pm. under the circumstance, i could not just ignore and sleep. so the three of us, us girls plus her bf, woke the neighbors up by wheeling sqeeky carts and boxes.

this morning, i couldn't imagine sitting through an orientation with other students in the program. and what do you know, i couldn't sit through. sometimes, med students can be so annoying.. especially when they've just finished school and are still charged up to talk about school and exams and school and exams. why are we so pompous and annoying? (or was i just really tired?)

towards the end of the day, i really couldn't look forward to going home to help someone unpack. (no, i have no shame in revealing by "un-niceness" :) especially when it comes to people i don't really know.) as i walked down the apt hallway towards my door, i took a deep breath and silently said, please let the best of me take control...

the key is turned and the door is opend with a forced courtesy of saying "hello?"
and what awaited me was not my roommate but a note saying she'll be at her bf's tonight.
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i'm often more thankful for little things in life than the real big ones that matter.

so i think i'll just take a nap for half an hour before meeting up a friend for coffee. (fyi, no dessert. amy gave up on dessert. at least for the day save for the piece of brownie she picked up at work.

ah, such a nice weather to go running. too bad there's not an ounce of desire in me to carry that thought into action.

it's gloomy outside.
i think i'm going to sit in a bookstore and read tonight. i've been meaning to do that for weeks and haven't done it once. i get sidetracked easily...

eek, i just heard the thunder :T hmmm...

oh yeah, i forgot about this one :P (from last week when the camera battery was running low..



imagine three girls doing this. one girl gave up after awhile ... hm, who could that be?

skyline from central park


yay - another trail by water :)


not too busy-looking, eh?

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i've decided to carry around my camera from now on. so here's a start

dinner tonight

we really couldn't hear what she was playing.


i've known this girl since 11th grade.


and i've known this girl for 20yrs...

and she's coming to visit! :) (i noticed that she posted a photo i didn't like, so i'm posting one that she doesn't like ;)

it's late i know.
is someone playing with my watch? winding it forward before work (by minutes) and after work (by hours).

my teeth hurt because it's been long since i wore my retainers at night. it's been almost two weeks.

i wonder if it'll hurt reading the bible before i sleep. it hasn't been two weeks but shamefully i admit, the reading hasn't been regular.

the last time i read, i was comforted from all that confused me.

"The law of the LORD is perfect,
reviving the soul.
The statutes of the LORD are trustworthy,
making wise the simple.
The precepts of the LORD are right,
giving joy to the heart.
The commands of the LORD are radiant,
giving light to the eyes.
The fear of the LORD is pure,
enduring forever.
The ordinances of the LORD are sure
and altogether righteous.
They are more precious than gold,
than much pure gold;
they are sweeter than honey,
than honey from the comb.
By them is your servant warned;
in keeping them there is great reward.

Who can discern his errors?
Forgive my hidden faults.
Keep your servant also from willful sins;
may they not rule over me.
Then will I be blameless,
innocent of great transgression.

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart
be pleasing in your sight,
O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer." psalm 19

our standards of living change with time and place in life. i feel this all the more, here and now. but there are certain standards set within me which i hope will not be compromised as years go by. and not changed by "maturity," money or mistakes along the way.
may my mouth and my heart be pleasing to the One who matters.


random picture taken not by me.

i'm having a bad coffee day.

sorry for not posting! i am really going to post more from now on. i've been having some problems with my camera during the first week. didn't have a charger and all that. last week, after having received the charger from maryland, i kept forgetting it to carry it around. it really hurt when i couldn't digitally record the beautiful weather last weekend here with bits of the city from chinatown straight up to the upper east side. yes, my legs are still sore from walking in sandals...

i'll be a better blogger.
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for my information, stay away from spontaneity.

so it's june 11. my sister reminds me of this day starting january of every year.
yup, it's her birthday...

'tho you look sleepy, this was the nicest pic i had of you. it was either this or one of the many blackmail photos in my computer.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my sister...

i miss watching tv with her. i can't tell whether it's her that i miss or the tv :T
hehe. (i do miss you! *ppo ppo*:)

so in light of what was said during dinner and after dinner, i spent the last ten minutes in the bathroom mirror to see if i really scrunch my nose when i laugh. i still don't think this is true.

and i don't think i laugh like a japanese anime when i'm uncomfortable. you guys are wrong and that's final.

nice people make me feel all warm inside...

oh what a corny post after a long break.
it's been hard to post. and write emails (*ahem* sorry..). and call people back. i hope to remedy this soon.

what would you think when the first thing a doorman says to you is, "again"?

yeah, exactly. again what?
then he goes, "ice cream, again?"

then i look at what's in my hand and say, "oh this......... heheh."
i really had nothing to say. didn't really want to tell him about my love for ice cream in the summer. he'll eventually figure it out.




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harry potter III is worth watching this time.

things of note from today :

riding the subway home, in front of a man reading the paper with the headline: "subway shooting" ...

riding the subway to work this morning, crammed inbetween people, and inching my way towards a mean-looking woman because the dude next to me was just way too close to my butt.

smiling and saying the silent hello's to people passing me by until i realize that i'm at the wrong place to do that.

meeting up with a high school friend at a moment's notice and having really really good sushi.

missing home.

not liking the bare apartment where no one awaits me.

trying out the gym in the building for the first time.

Just posting a few pics of the trail where my roommate and i run. i just got from my sister. these are from last year when school began.


river by the trail

very scenic..

the bridge that connects..

the lovely trail by the river