okay forget updating what i've been upto. i want your sympathy. pity or sympathy.

so, this girl (that would be me, y'all) can't even drive more than 10 min. because it's her right knee that's in pain. my mother is giving me her arthritis pills (no, none of those that might give your a heart attack), and she's wearing those ACE knee braces. I actually think my knee brace is cool. in highschool, i used to secretly envy those sporty girls in soccer/hockey/rugby teams who seems to injure something on themselves everyday. and there was no reason for me to wear braces while playing the flute. (that actually won't be cool.)

i kinda fell off the face of the earth for the past couple of days. with the absolutely no-minute-on-my-cell as an excuse, i failed to return calls and reply to emails. i'm ready to get connected with the wonderful world again. talk to you soon.

basically the whole day was spent
listening to chrismas carols.
jumping/limping up and down, back and forth the living room.

and just started to make some banana bread :) yup, it really is 11pm.

but, i gotta do something with those bananas before i leave, right?

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i also helped out with church building cleaning (yes, i'm boasting! i was very proud of my courage to join people i didn't know since all my classmates have already left the town.), cleaned my own bathroom, met an excellent hair stylist whose salon also gave me hand and scalp massages, and organized my binders. *whew* what a day for a girl who walks like a 'wounded gangsta' as a neighbor called me this morning.
happy happy happy :D

i wasn't going to post but...

i drove home from school around 5 today, put the car in parking, turned off the engine, and spontaneously i screamed from the top of my lungs (oh, those darn lungs...) I'M DONE! i surprised myself and the neighbor who just happened to be passing by to take out his trash. good thing he was a classmate.

I'm DONE!

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i found an old trust-worthy friend who's now in paris. so i was thinking of ways to pull a rather last minute trip overseas to greet the new years but alas, i forgot to get a new passport in time(which takes at least two weeks even at an extra cost?)

so i thought, hey maybe this will be a good year to overcome my fears and re-learn the basics of skiing and making those pizza-wedges down the slope. then, a doctor-wanna-be advised that i give my right leg as much rest as possible for the next four weeks. (i forgot to tell you that i hurt my knee. don't know what the cause is, but it sure was a good reason to skip kick-boxing for awhile. but the pain and discomfort has become progressively worse. no swelling or heat. but it hurts with movement:T what's up with that?)

point being: i think i'm going to have a chill, restful two week break. my humble goals for the remaining year are to read three books, go to the movies with daddy who misses his girls lots, work out (with minimal impact) with my sister, hang out with the few friends i have nearby and expect the unexpected blessings.

i can't wait.

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thank you*

currently

studying: pneumonia
eating: kimchi
drinking: diet pepsi
thinking: if my stomach controls a big chunk of my emotions on daily basis, why not keep my stomach awake to keep my brain awake? that is, hopefully before i get an ulcer.

just 15 more hours to go...

ah the wonders of caffeine

i wish i can just pull you aside and vent for 15 minutes. that's all i need. i would prefer that you're a girl, in your twenties, with similar values as .. me. or perhaps you should be someone on the other side of the spectrum. neah, just someone with common sense and broad understanding.

i shouldn't have gone out to dinner with three girls three nights before the test. i would normally call them my gal pals but tonight, they talked a little too much about and concerning me. i'm sure it was all from the goodness of their hearts (i should hope.) but midway into dinner, i felt like the only kid on the block with no cable, hanging out with kids crazy about MTV. sitting there, disconnected, alone, and wanting to just run home. is ME that different than others? is that so bad?

struggling to get back to studying.

what's wrong with me?

eversince this past weekend, i have been on 24-hr hunger mode. and it's not that i don't eat. i eat and i'm still hungry. a normal person might hear her stomach growl and then assume that it's time to eat. i, on the other hand, begin with the idea that i should eat (forgetting the last time i munched was less than an hour ago), and then my stomach growls as a confirmatory sign. something's wrong...

maybe i am getting sick. i have been on a weird swing of things. i went to the pool again and swam half the usual laps. and came home and ate. maybe i'm getting ready for hibernation.

oh that sounds so appealing -- hibernating through the winter. doesn't that sound good to you?

just waiting for next friday to come. hurry up!

hello december.
a little early, aren't you? i really didn't expect you to come so soon. but you're always a nice surprise, so please be sure to take your time. i'm not sure why, but the other guys hardly gave me a chance to spend some quality time with them this year. (especially november!) and if you don't mind, do give me a nudge when it's time for the following: time to write christmas cards (oh, i should do that now?), time to mail them out (what? soon?), time to stop everything and reflect, time to do those gift-buying ordeals for loved ones, and time to give thanks especially with Christmas and all..

Thanks. i hope i enjoy your company to the fullest.
Your fan,
me.