I watched The Bachelor for the first time, after reading all the hype about the show. it lasted 10 mins until i fleed to my room in disgust.

1. the bachelor isn't as hot as i thought.
2. his i'm-searching-for-true-love speech every 5mins is transparently fake. and i have to gag.
3. his head is bigger than it should be. in every sense.
4. those girls, some who appear to be nice and normal and cute and all that more, make me mad that they're staking so much of their dignity for a rose.

i mean really.
maybe i'm one of those who prefer The Bachelorette. is that show still on?
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if there are two things that can be downloaded to my brain over night, if i lived in The Matrix and had connections with neo and all... i would wish to download spanish and EKG knowledge. but then again, at the price of shaving my head, i would have to throw in a few more skills, perhaps the art of cooking and driving a stick.

until such time of fantasy, i shall go back to p.15 of this.

yes, this is suppose to be me thinking about the end of my free weekend. yes i'm seeking lots of sympathy... :) (oh wait, no smileys if i want to sound genuine. oops.) well, i don't think i can every cry in such delicate pose anyways.

i just realized that the orders of the pictures below are wrong. but i also know you guys are strong enough to handle such minor chaos.

since i promised...




the first pic is from patisserie poupon in georgetown. the best coffee i've had in a long time...
the second pic, i just posted it even though i look like a deer caught in the headlight because i want to challenge you guys to wonder how i sat up on a wall that comes up to my shoulders to take this picture at the WWII memorial site in DC. (btw, it's a very impressive site. )
the third, of course, might give you guys a wrong idea, but it's actually a company holiday party of a friend from HS who really really needed a date because his beloved girlfriend was out of county. i agreed under the conditions of leaving the party within an hour and him treating me to a nice dinner. i'm a great friend, if i may say so ;)

ah... good ol' dec of 2005. such a distant memory. what happened to january?!?!

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i actually had a great weekend. went shopping, hung out with classmates who were all done with exams. went shopping again in georgetown because we were blessed with an AWESOME weather. had soondooboo (x2), had dim-sum, and to wrap everything up, the sunday service and its message eased the frustrations i had within.

for those in medicine,
i'm starting medicine tomorrow... apparently the bread and butter of my future profession? it'll be three (!) months, q4 during the 2 months of wards. yes, i'm weeping inside as we speak. keep me in your thoughts and share any wisdom or links to pertinent journal articles that will help this little child shine like a bright star on the floor ;) no really.

btw, to a doc in NC (or is it SC? ... hm, where's duke???), i keep remembering that i owe you an email. it'll come it'll come. have you started your fellowship already??

what a looong email...!
tootles.

i pinky-promise to upload those pictures i've been promising to post.

until then, cross all your non-pincky fingers that i do well on my exam this friday. 10am to be exact.

shanx. ;)

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind."
- Dr. Seuss


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a few days until i'm free from the kiddies. a few days of hard work ahead.


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belated congrats to a southern friend on his engagement!
surely your grand plans have worked and made it one of the best stories i've heard!

sleepovers at the hospital are not fun.
but sometimes interesting cases of patients can keep it moving fast, albeit it leaves people very exhausted in the following morning. i learned over my last call-night that i will encourage only the studious, resourceful classmates to choose ER as their field. otherwise, lazy ER docs who don't keep their medical knowledge sharpened have the power to make dozens of lives miserable. that includes residents, nurses, patients... and of course, poor medical students who can only tag along their interns with sleep eyes.

gosh, if i'm not as sleepy as i am now, i would write so much more. stories of little kids and babies, mostly very ill ones, that i'm finding myself liking very much.

uh oh, will pediatrics be my call? chuck out the crazy idea of going into surgery or critical care?

i had seven full hours of sleep on a bunk bed last night. yes, peeps, 7 hours of sleep while on call :D

but why am i dozing off so badly now??? i don't get it.

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mommy drove by with her friend to pick up a few things i accidently brought with me fro my parents... ya know, things like her wallet that has her driver's license and stuff :P (for the record, it was my mom who left her purse in my car. not i.) anyways, in a post-call (yet full rested) state, i had to clean the whole apt in 10 min. stuffing anything that was visible into everything that could be covered. i think the remote controls in my laundry hamper. roomie wouldn't like that....

okie dokie. nuff rambling.
my little korean/indonesian boy [with kawasaki's disease] left the hospital. he blew me a kiss even though he usually cries when i come near him. poor boy. he hates doctors.

it's difficult hard to say i'm sorry when i mean it.
but i had to, in order to start the year right.
so hard that my eyes got teary when i told a third party to relay the message. i should never have "fall-outs" with people. i rarely do.

it's also very hard to study. it's hard to accept the reality that ... for one, i need to sleep on a bunk bed with strangers six times in the next three weeks. i will miss home every one of those nights.


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i want sushi badly.


what shall i do with my life? this will be the question of the year. the moment i find out, i'll post it on this blog for the world to see. until then, the world can ponder the question with me.
gracias.


i want sushi....

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no pix from the break. i left my camera at my parents. oops.
sorry for this year's first pseudo-bleh-i-am-sad post. it reflects my current mood precisely, however.

a friend who says my attending (aka the doctor that i should impress every morning) likes to grill people "but that's just his personality," didn't help me feel any better. i regret giving him mean looks last month when he kept disturbing our class to get coffee. i thought he was just a resident dude with caffeine-addiction. darn it. maybe i will say i'm sorry to him too... with teary eyes.