sad no more.

i just spent that whole morning watching a dozen of old white men run on a treadmill without their shirts on. one after another. at one point, i almost said, hm, didn't i just see you 10 mins ago?


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changing to more serious subject:

i'm very sad right now :(

ok, people, friends, family, strangers, and those in the category of "others,"

i promise to buckle down and study hard. i will not surf the net with no purpose as i have been doing for the past few weeks. i will try to focus on the important things of today than tomorrow. and i will not write useless words here until my exam.

thanks for listening.
:)

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yes, one cannoli would've been sufficient.

talking to my sister on the phone. she's in town for spring break (with all seriousness, college students have way too many days off. yes, i'm a tad bitter.) and i'm looking forward to spending some quality time with her before she leaves this weekend. you know, order some papa john's pizza and watch food network together in pj's. for us, that's sisterly bonding :)

man, i hate homework...

i closed my books early yesterday and went to see V for Vendetta with a friend. superb movie in my opinion, minus the few disagreements i have with its subtle underlying message which is often the case with wachowski bros's films.

i was definitely sold for V, the crazy man.
ok, back to work.

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natalie portman was also great, except maybe a bit of an awkward brit accent. have you guys seen the movie Léon (or The professional in the states)? very similar concept with her relationship with the crazy older man.

congrats to all my fourth year friends who matched so well today!
(match: med students are matched to residency programs)

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why was I so nauseated at the thought of match? I'm still quite queazy at the idea of getting an envelope that will decide my future residence.

*sigh*

life is so humbling.
i feel so small right now.

two little med students waiting by the elevator. all of a sudden, both of their pagers go off, read : something something something NCAA brackets.

n: what's NCAA?
a: hm, i don't know. something arthritis association? oh wait, is it the african american assocation?
n: oh a. you're worse than me. we'll ask m later.

m: [stunned by our ignorance] let me as you this, who's william payton?
a: you mean the war general?

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sometimes, i'm too embarrassed to keep things to myself.

i was just talking to my mom about this and that, and i asked her if she had any insight into my future, hoping that if God's not telling me anything, perhaps he's done so to a woman who prays a little more than i these days.

but alas, she was of no help.

mom: "oh you know.. something not too hard.. something that's not too busy.. but satisfying for you... with a decent pay because you can't work ALL the time...something that's stable"
me: "so basically, you don't have a clear picture either."
mom: "um, yeah. btw, when are you coming home?"

sorry for these extremely uninteresting posts. i just can't seem to come up with topics that will tantalize your brains these days.

leave positive feedbacks (or any words, geesh.. :) in the guest book and i might write better. heh.

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why am i eating left-over chinese food at 11 o'clock at night? just why??

i like positive feedback.
it makes me smile and move on... so lame :)


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on a different note,
i really miss my resident last month. miss him so much that it hurts my stomach thinking about it. (whoa! ... ok, maybe it's the half decaf coffee i'm drinking. dude, starbucks just doesn't make good coffee.) anyway, this month's resident is nice, but not as fun. you see, this is a testament to how i get attached to people once i let myself get attached to people. tsk tsk tsk.

i had a good weekend. good food, good company, good teaching on playing poker. now back to the daily grind starting tomorrow!
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another call with no patients for me. goodness golly.

such a nice weather. i had so much caffeine last night that its effect carried overnight and upon awakening, i cleaned my room at 8am. so dusty was my window sill. tsk tsk tsk.


i was in a temporary frenzy this morning too when i realized that my exam is in 3 weeks and not 4. many thoughts went through my mind, weighing the pros and cons of cancelling some weekend events.

then on my way from the hospital, at a stop light, i decided to pull out my pda and check exactly how many days i have to.

the calendar tells me that the test is actually 4 weeks away.

i feel bad for a few classmates to whom i passed on the frantic vibe. remind me to tell them that i was wrong.

ok. so...
dilemma here.
attend a "highly recommended" lecture at 2pm
or skip it and go outside and enjoy the sun and "read" ??
(these quotes are to indicate the words that may raise one's eyebrows;)

hm hm hum.

i think i'll hide in this cubicle until it's safe for me to run to the garage without being seen by a senior, who by the way is leaving soon to get her car fixed. our medicine team comprised of 6 people right now have 2 patients to cover :) :D

so nice.

who knew doctors prefer no patients, right?
anyway, that's my mid-day report. rare it is.

i want pretty earrings....
but i found out that i'm allergic to almost every kind of metal except for white gold. huh.

too bad i bought several pairs without trying them on, in anticipation of wearing them someday. i'll probably pop in mega-doses of benadryl and show off those forbidden pairs of studs and hoops... until i get knock out from the medicine.

anyways...

just rambling while i do a few write-ups for tomorrow.
i never liked homework. who knew i would be doing homework in my mid-twenties.. who knew?

btw, today is Ash Wednesday, the beginning of lent.

anyone out there thinking of following the customs of lent this year? i might give up a few things and commit to a few things. maybe.