ok, so, um...

oh nevermind. i'll tell you guys later.
;)

(how's that for a tease?)

i'm back :) ... or should that be, i'm back :(

the next two weeks will be pretty tough, considering i'm mucho mucho behind in reading and studying. but i had a nice, chill, fun wknd.

this morning, i made my dad breakfast because we were the only ones up so early. i asked him if he wanted his eggs over-easy, and guess what he says! "well, i would like them over-easy but if that's too hard for you, i'm fine with sunny side-up."

he underestimated my skillet skills! so then, i served him TWO very perfectly round eggs done over-easy, with no runs or burns. impressed? you should be :P (actually the third one was a disaster. but i like scrambled eggs anyway ;) i also grilled some sausage links, made him coffee and a bowl of fruits. yes, this post makes me sounds like a stellar daughter. but not really. i'm actually a very mean, abusive, nagging daughter. i told him no more eggs for the rest of the week, as recommended by the american heart association.. apparently.

and i watched random korean soaps with my sister and mom. such a waste of time.. yet kinda entertaining. oh, how romance is so complicated on the other side of the globe!

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back in my apt, dozens of ants were waiting to greet me again. i guess the professional terminators' one-time visit wasn't enough. *sigh* perhaps, i'll grow to like these lil' critters. ok, maybe never.
tootles.

hey you,
life's alright. these days i go to bed after smothering my face with sunblock spf40. my windows face the west and it's quite bright even with the blinds down, and i don't plan on getting freckle #45 after a good day's sleep. oh yeah, and i have to wear a eye mask. my eyes are quite sensitive to light as well ;)

i caught a baby coming out of his mommy last night. pretty cool. even if it was a slimy, very wet experience...

i'm trying to sleep at every moment possible but when i calculated the hours, i would be sleeping twice as much as i used to sleep. so i'm up now, doing "homework" for tomorrow.

if you haven't figured this out by now, i'm working on nights these days. i hope this week is over real soon. i don't adjust to changes that well.

attending macaroni's graduation was more hard work than i bargained for. but it was fun being with the family again. flying in and driving back to my place didn't turn out to be the BEST of ideas but it was ok. i like driving... but not when i'm stuck in traffic on I-95 (of all the highways, streets and alleys!). sadly all the pictures are on her camera so i can't post any yet.

hope you are having a swell week!
hugs,
me

i hate packing.
i really do. packing and laundry. two most dreadful chores.

anyways, i'm so tired right now, my eyes don't fully open. i'm seeing through my eye lashes... (i think i fell asleep writing a note at a nurse's station and was witnessed by a nurse. she said she felt bad for me. at least somebody appreciates my hard work! :(

i think i'm gonna pack myself in the luggage and ask my roomie to fed-ex the bag overnight. would be a bumpy ride, but hey, at least i wouldn't have to pack.

i'll post some pics in two weeks. in two weeks, i should get my life back in order. at least that's the plan!

ciao... (Q: how do you say good bye in spanish?)

good morning!


:)

ok, i'll write a decent post soon.

factoids:
i woke up early enough today to have an email time and do my homework that i didn't do yesterday/ i'm hoping for a chill day at work/ will be flying to the north to attend my sister's graduation tomorrow ....

and i was so full upon awakening, i missed breakfast! *gasp* ;)

good night!

feelin' better.. still not 100% recovered. i would say the shade is lavendar than blue :)

got myself a huge chocolate chip cookie from Subway.

today turned out better than i thought. i was initially assigned for 5 very not-so-interesting cases back to back. then someone switched the schedule and i ended up having just one big case. (actually .. and technically.. i should've had two. but i deemed the second one not beneficial to my knowledge, education or career and told the surgeon i won't be coming back for the next case.) and i was done with today's responsibility at 11:30.

um, okay...
ttyl.


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i pray for someone i love very much 500 miles away. everything will be ok, dear.

blue blue blue...
don't know why
but i'm blue.. :(

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who's the best person to call when i'm blue?

per your request, i enabled comment boxes. sadly, i don't think i can write that often these days.. and i've always had mixed feelings about comments. so we shall see! ;)

a quick post from the hospital:

i saw a chocolate cyst!
and it really looks like melted chocolate!!


now you know what i'll be thinking the next time i go for dessert fondue...
:D

life isn't complete until you see a woman giving birth.

well, at least that's how i felt after my first experience. that was this morning. boy do i feel so much more mature. ok, maybe not. but maybe a pinch more enlightened.

so at 9:30am, i saw a woman giving natural birth. i promised silently that i would not let myself go through that. risk myself of having trouble going to the bathroom for a cone-head baby. (ok, some are indeed cute.) it didn't look tempting at all.
then at 10:20am, i went into see a cesarean section being done. and there, i promised again that no one's gonna cut my belly up like that just to get a baby out.

so i ran out of options to have my own biological babies in an hour and half. huh. seriously.
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anyways, this is my "enlightenment" of the day :
for me to marry a guy, he better do some backward cartwheels and sing night and day how much he adores me. for me to date a guy, ... hm, he should at least do a forward chartwheel.. or something else i can't think of but just as equally challenging.

after today, at least in my book, guys need to step up to the plate and earn his way to be with a girl who would be willing to sacrifice her body to pass on his genes. i mean, that's the least they can do, no?

sorry.. i'm a little worked up right now.
i had a long day and this is the first time i'm sitting in a chair for longer than 10mins. (minus the car ride in the middle of call to the mall:P i "volunteered" to pick up dinner for our team. i actually enjoyed the break)

well, peeps, those are my two cents on the miracle of life. all the bitterness aside, it really is amazing. somewhat surreal... very...painful.
ciao.

had a MUCH better day today than yesterday...

think i might even stop by the gym on my way home :)

will write more later!